Ok.. I'm really tired.. but i'm writing a blog anyways.. or i mean entry!! lol... Hmm.. I still don't know how to feel, or what to feel... cuz yea.. it's just so weird. I'm having this stupid ass weird feelings... I thought I was happy but I guess I wasn't there yet! BUt im glad he left her ass... Geez She's just too crazy!! AHhhh.I just closed my eyes and I almost fell off the chair!! Ahh hhahahahaha.. im a dork! I'm waiting for Steven to respond.. well he's not responding.. so i should go to sleep!! GOOD NITE PPLS!

Life sux.. well @ least for me!

PEAZE
MICHELLE

Sigh...

Life has been better since I'm actually realizing that i'll be all alone after high school... I gotta be independant... hmm.. I gotta worry bout college and everything else that comes in life!! All I want is to be happy! Anyways I'm hecka sick.. I didnt know why until I went to the clinic today.. It's some contagious sickness goin around OKi!! well I call it .. Synous. eeww.. I don't even know if I spelled it right! hahaha... Anyways What did I do todai... lemme see.. O yea.. I stayed home... Shoot.. Lost my voice todaii.. but I found it.. LMAO.. yea.. Sick me... haha.. but other than that.. erything was ok todai.. Got so bored so I fixed my xanga and myspace! LMAO..

Ummm... Ano na.. malapit na ang katapusan nang High school at hmm.. may iiwanan pero meron rin magkikita ulit... Away ko nang umasa... APAT na buwan na lang at alisan na ang ibang tao dito sa Okinawa.... Mahirap magpaalam pero kailangan.. Just keep in touch! umm... natatakot ako, na baka hindi na kami magkatuluyan nang lalaking pinakamamahal ko... Pero kung hindi mangyari... siguro tanggap ko na... na nag paka tanga ako sa kanya at sa mga tao...Martyr siguro ako... sa definition nang flips... Umm.. hindi ko alam kung paano ko tatangapin, pero kailangan... kung kami nga... then kami, pero kung hindi.. Okey lang naman... sana kasi.. Hindi napunta dito yung problema naming dalawa... nadamay and ibang tao.. lumaki... at ngayon ganoon pa rin pero bumaba na...mabuti naman! haha... 

Things for me are going ok! Not what I wanted but its still alright.. Thank GOD! At least God is still by my side... Thanx for listening to my prayers... Even though it takes a while to happen... Everyday I pray for things to be better. I think im satisfied.... even though things aren't what I want.. but i don't know.. Im just goin wit the flow right now! Im really confused... I still am! Not wit my feelings this time... but someone else!! Geez! 

Anyways imma end it here... No cuzzing cuz I brought up God!! SOWWIE!

MICHELLE  

FEB. 10, 06

This is so TRUE!

Anyways i don't even remember the last time I updated this mofizzle! hahaha... O welps.... Hmmm... What to talk bout! I don't know!

Do U ever wonder..When U love someone so much...
If he's ever going to come back into ur arms again... With his heart still urs...?
I do.. all the time! But seems that he won't be coming back!

Don't U hate it...
When you don't talk to each other anymore... and U're almost there to moving on..And he started talking to u again when U least expect it... all ur love for him came back!!! I DON'T LIKE THAT SHIET!!
I took my time to actually think  bout everything... and I mean everything...
I don't wanna go into details.. reasons why I shouldn't bother anymore!!!
and when U need him to be there... He's nowhere to be seen!

Why does he let her do all those stupid shiet to him! She's messing up his life! I don't know anymore... This is how he wants himself to be! I can't do anything bout it too!!
Well as much as it hurts... I still care bout him.. Prayin that everything will get better!I don't know how long i can take it.. but this is too long for me!! It doesnt bother me! I really care bout him...

When U care about someone.... U can get stabbed so many times and not care about it because all u think about is that one particular person!

IF I ever find someone new... Dat doesnt mean I move on!
I just wanna see how it would feel like to be loved again and this time... I don't wanna regret anything again... I don't want to wait for someone who's not coming back! Life stinks.. and i need to be happy once again... Wit someone to share what I have...

HAPPY LATE CHRISTMAS AND MERRY NEW YEAR!!!

MERRY LATE CHRISTMAS...

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

So  I guess i'm late with the whole christmas greeting and wut not!! O well... Happy birthday to GOD!! woohoo...WOW... it's almost new year... I hope there will be no drama and someone elses issues.. and ppls being nosy about other ppls business and no bitches and ppls who's all talk and no action!!! (cowards).. hahaha.. so I guess they didn't get to kick my ass... Not listening to guys again!!! WTF... I don't wanna get my hopes up again!!! WOOOHOOO... 2006!!! OMG!!  I can't wait to graduate.. I don't wanna see this damn Fake ass ppls and two faced ppls!!! but Imma miss real friends that stick with me through my problems!! I LOVE U GUYS!!!! I think when graduation comes i'm just going to breakdown like CRAZY!!! When I walk up the stadium.. and shake some l;adies hands... Wave goodbye to everyone!! WOW... that's the day I guess I'll realize.." THIS IS IT"

I DID IT!!.. time for college!! Then maybe I'll see the same ppls especially in the Military!!! O yeah!! I can't wait!!! WOW!!! It's so soon!! TOO SOON!!! Maybe... Not long enuff for friends to stay together... U know how military goes... They stay for three years or so then leave... so yea...... Maybe I'll look back to wut happened to the Senior of '06 and laugh bout the whole... Drama!! it's high School... wut can I say!! LMAO!!

OMG Nnesa and Jinsy visited me yesterdai!! so happy!!! We mad took crazy and funny pictures.. Imma put it on myspace.. lol.. Its Crazy!! And I got like a spirit beside me when Jinsy took a picture!!! 2 of them!! haha.. yea U can call me crazy but I saw it! then they ate cake.. sorry I don;t have that much food in my house! haha... "They're in mi su casa" hahahaha.. LMAO.. (inside jokes).. but u should get it!! I don't know Spanish and I took 2 years of it!! hahaha.. can u believe that!! NAh I havent been studying my spanish!! I don';t really need it!! Since im done so I dont really care bout it!! Hmm.. I need to start Studyin... maybe i might take some Spanish Course in College!! Geez.. Imma major.. Psychology!! haha.. so I guess.. NVm!! I don't know.. I might change my mind!! Aiite Imma bounce now!

MICHELLE

Hmmm... I don't know what to do really... Like this one song says  "NOTHING IS MORE COMPLICATED THAN LOVE"   nasasaktan na ako.... tama ba ang ginawa ko? nag kamali ba ako sa mga decision ko? ano ba ang dapat kong gawin? puro mali na lang yata ang ginagawa ko e... Ako na nga ang ginawan nang mali, Ako pa ang mali!! Lahat nang tao parang against me... Ok lang ba kung gusto ako ni Steven at bumalik ulit ako sa kanya? Yung sinabi nya sa e-mail ko noon na ibinigay nya sa akin sobrang sakit... nabasa ko ulit.. and lumuha na lang ako... Hindi ko alam kung gusto kong bumalik ulit sa kanya ... Ayokong masaktan ang ibang tao... tama na siguro kung ako lang ang nasasaktan.. at least hindi ako guilty!!  bumabalik lang lahat nang mga nangyari sa akin nung summer of 2005... Wala akong mapuntahan... wala rin yung two best friend ko... pero ok lang.. at least I've gone through it and im still stayin strong... Pero gusto ko na talagang umalis dito sa Okinawa... wala naman sa akin nag hihintay dito e.. that's how badly I wanna get out of here... kasi it seems like eryone is aiite w/o me.. parang.. bula lang ako... ewan ko... No hindi ako nag dadrama dito and like I said if U dont wanna hear me complaining over here... well Don't read it! o.o.. masakit mawalan nang mahal sa puso! mayne.. im serious... pero ok lang sa akin... sana masaya na nga sila... respetado ko pa rin yung babae kahit ginawa nya sa akin mali... pwede nyo akong tawagan na puta... o anuman.. pero babalik sa inyo yan.. KARMA!! I believe in that... pero... wala pa rin ako sa point noh? ang hirap kasi umpisahan e.. Hindi ko alam kung saan mag umpisa.. sobra!! Ill just keep it to myself... as for some ppls... U know who u r and U know wut im talkin bout I think... haha.. Im so undecided.. LMAO... kung nabasa nyo lang yung e-mail nya sa akin.. alam ko matagal na yun pero napansin ko lang e and then I started readin it!! O well.. Life sux.. Its sux more for me than anyone that I know... Rite now!!! Well not really but yea Its almost there..

Is It ok to sacrifce ur love for someone else just to make them happy? and think that one day he'll come back to you no matter what? hmmmm... I really don't know the answer to this! but yea if yallz do pls comment me!! I was just wondering... I can't seem to find the right guy!? sad but true!

Aiite peaze for now!